UGH!

So here it is.
My husband as been telling me I should blog for a while now. I wasn't sure if I wanted to or even should. I had a feeling it would all be negative and maybe it will. I guess we will find out. There is so much going on and so much venting to be done. This is the best way I can think of right now to let it all out.
It seems that when it rains it pours. It's been pouring for so long I don't even remember rain. Mostly it's about money and what to do about it. Money, evil money......when you have it it's not so bad. When you don't it's a killer. Everything is so behind. The cable gets turned off, the electricity gets turned off, car payments are behind, my husband tells me the mortgage payments are quite behind (and tells me today we should start looking to move), ortho bills need paid (at this rate I will have braces forever), the list goes on and on. How did it get like this??? Well, I do know but I just never thought I would be in this position. It doesn't seem that long ago things were going great. Money wasn't an issue. We had it and enough of it so much so I guess I took it for granted. I suppose it didn't just happen overnight and it has been a while we have been struggling. My brain has been avoiding the topic of our problems cause it's easier to pretend things are going to be ok. This is not usually how I work but the stress has taken over and I am not me anymore. I am just a mass of stress.