Goodbye Grandpa

So yesterday at 1:25 my grandpa passed away. We knew it was coming. He has been having issues for the past month but that still doesn't prepare you for the actual event. I am not sure it has really hit me yet. I feel numb inside about it. I think that is cause I wont let myself feel it yet. A therapist once told me she didn't think I "felt" things. I didn't really know what to think of that at the time but I guess she was right. Like right now I feel very alone and sad but instead of really feeling that I am going to hide in my bed and try to sleep it off (like that will work....ha!) I am sure I will wake up feeling the same way but the day will keep me busy and I wont think about it again until the next quiet moment I have.
Maybe I should go back to therapy.
Anyways I will miss my grandpa very much.
Goodbye Grandpa and I love you!!!!!!! :(

State Fair

On Labor Day the whole family went to the state fair. We saw all the animals, walked through all the barns. Walked through all the remains in the barns. It was great. The kids really liked the animals, well most of them.
The next day I was taking the kids to the doctor for the girl to be looked at for MRSA. I hear laughing in the back seat, I turn around and see the baby licking the bottom of his shoe. The girls finds this VERY funny and starts to lick the bottom of her shoe. YUCK!! So I do my best to explain to them that this is very yucky and the day before they had walked through poo and now they were licking poo on their shoes. This didn't stop them from thinking this was funny. I finally convinced them to stop but the baby decides to take off his shoe and starts licking the bottom of his foot.............ew
All I can do is laugh to myself.................it's no wonder they have MRSA.