Goodbye Grandpa

So yesterday at 1:25 my grandpa passed away. We knew it was coming. He has been having issues for the past month but that still doesn't prepare you for the actual event. I am not sure it has really hit me yet. I feel numb inside about it. I think that is cause I wont let myself feel it yet. A therapist once told me she didn't think I "felt" things. I didn't really know what to think of that at the time but I guess she was right. Like right now I feel very alone and sad but instead of really feeling that I am going to hide in my bed and try to sleep it off (like that will work....ha!) I am sure I will wake up feeling the same way but the day will keep me busy and I wont think about it again until the next quiet moment I have.
Maybe I should go back to therapy.
Anyways I will miss my grandpa very much.
Goodbye Grandpa and I love you!!!!!!! :(